I am still enjoying time with my children and haven’t paid much attention to my marriage or any of the problems in my life. It has been good! There have been moments where my thoughts have strayed to the pain of the past two years, but for the most part, I have been smiling a lot.
I am also involved in a theater dance production right now and I am the only solo performer. I am practicing hard. It has been good to be so busy. I wouldn’t have been able to handle that early on — I needed lots of time to reflect and think and allow myself to feel and process my pain. But now I am ready and when I am training I am able to completely focus. I still cry sometimes when I am alone and I still have to force myself to be involved with things sometimes, but when I am practicing, it all disappears.
Joel Osteen’s Facebook post today said, “Get your hopes up. Raise your expectations. Your best days are still in front of you.” I needed to hear that today.
May your New Year celebrations be safe and happy!