Shortly after D-day, I went to the doctor. My vitals were so out of whack that she asked me if something had happened to me. So I told her briefly that I had just found out that my husband had been having an affair. She was wonderful in her response and put me at ease. She asked me if I needed medication to sleep or to help with depression. I just automatically said no. I tend to be very sensitive to medications and I don’t take anything unless I absolutely have to.
Coach James, though, says that A LOT of people take various drugs for depression and sleep when they are in recovery after an affair. So I’m wondering… do you take stuff? What do you take? Does it help?
Even though I have developed fibromyalgia, I still don’t take anything besides a pain reliever and Sudafed. Sudafed is the oddest thing for me. Since I am so sensitive to medications, Sudafed – pseudoephedrine – is also strong for me. It acts like a stimulant. It takes away a lot of my physical pain from the fibro so I can still do martial arts and fitness classes. I have to do a long extended and gradual period of warm-ups that other people don’t, but after that, I’m ready to go and have only lost a little bit of my mobility. I only take it for my weekend classes, which are the most rigorous. Otherwise, I will build up a resistance and have to take more and more – like a drug addict.
The stimulant effect also helps me to get things done. I only take it once in the morning, but it keeps me pumped for much of the day. During the week when I don’t take it, I sometimes have difficulty focusing on getting things done and I am much more depressed. Hmmm… so I guess I am medicating, but only on weekends, and only with non-prescription stuff.
How about you?