Infidelity. Affair. Betrayal. Deceit. None of those words seem to adequately describe the situation when you find out your spouse has been unfaithful. The devastation, grief, and utter despair are indescribable. The pain is beyond anything I ever imagined in my entire life. Some people say you can completely recover from it. At this writing, it has been over five years since I discovered my husband’s affair, and while the pain has diminished and I don’t think about it all time, it’s still there. It’ll pop into focus at odd times and in inopportune situations when something triggers a memory. But I am moving on and away from focusing on the injustice of my past. I am leaving this blog online in the hopes that it can help someone who needs someone who understands.
I wrote this blog as I experienced it, so if you would like a chronological story, I suggest you read it backwards and start from my first post back in February 2011. I stopped writing on this blog when I felt that the worst of the trauma was over. I am not over it, but now I am going to change my focus to living a joyous life and not continually focusing on the pain anymore.
If you are in the trauma phase of discovering an unfaithful partner, let me say that I am so sorry. I do not wish this experience on anyone. It nearly did me in. But know that you are not alone, and if you leave a comment here, I will see it and respond to you.
My best to anyone who comes across this… may God guide you in your personal journey.